Crazy Mom

I've debated how I would write about this, so you are getting a diluted, but honest version. Last Mother's Day a friend gave a talk in church. Usually the Mother's Day talks are happy little 'isn't mom great' talks. She took a different approach and let everyone know that motherhood is the hardest, most wonderful thing in the world and some days she wanted to pull her hair out. Today it all came to a head and I had one of those days. I thought about Jesus saying to become like a little child and I had a child-like kicking screaming fit. It was very therapeutic and everyone should try it now and then. After my pity party I started thinking about a talk I heard about feelings and emotions. The nuts and bolts of it is there are things we feel, like worry, frustration, fear and the emotions we give off. Mine, like many people, tends to be anger. I decided that I was so frustrated because I've been spending time on everything for everyone and feel like I don't really exist as an individual. I'm not saying the world should revolve around me, but on days that I feel I can't go pee with out the world falling apart, something is wrong! So laundry be damned I'm going to sit and write for a while because it makes me happy. (ok so there is a load in the dryer!) I hope if any of the rest of you are feeling overwhelmed with all life has given you, you know you are not alone. Yes in calm, reflective moments I see the many blessings and joys.......and that is why I like to blog about the good times.